.. Knowing Love and Fear. 
As an actress I am, I all I take to heart. Everything for me has always been very serious. I still remember when my father came as a surprise to school and I could not think of happiness that had come to visit me. The reality was that the director had called him because I refused to participate in the event of the school. My Dad, the Director and I met and I had to explain again to the Director, but now in front of my dad, I spent all my afternoons in dance classes, in music classes and performance, for me the act of the school was something that could be nice but the only test that had attended the mess was all I had to leave angry. - How wanted to lend me such a "show" when making theater was just what I loved to do - and then finished off: - You understand me daddy, because you also love and respect Theatre. As a good "Prima Dona" I do not remember which side got, I just remember my outrage. The truth is that in future nobody bothered me ever again having to engage in any act in school.
Of course, that seriousness applied to all areas of life: The Loves, of course!
My first great loves were my family, my brother, who was the sweetest little boy, beautiful and generous of the universe, of course! second only to Theo, the three friends who become your sisters for the rest of life, platonic love to become your best friends, those two or three guys that steal your heart and once you dare kinks: I love you! and my profession, of course, has always been the great love of my life.
The first time I saw Theo came to my mind that you will always repeat: "Childbirth is painful, but when finally you see the baby takes all" Well, I'm sorry, but it is not true. The first time I saw Theo, after pushing nearly five hours, I thought - until he finally came out dammit! - And it was just relief and love that I felt at that time. However, I must confess that yes, I like to embellish start with that piece of meat that moves and cries. It was not until a couple of days later, without feeling convinced even call him by name, called him: My love ... .. OH !..... How different those two words rang me then! And how its real meaning, after 33 years to repeat, it really showed me and I felt my whole body. "MY LOVE: me, my little boy son born to me that is my life and my whole being into his hands. "That's how powerful are the two words that we use daily without recognizing its value.
Stronger still was the first day I said, I LOVE YOU. I was ashamed to have dared to utter these words before. But with all this new powerful world of deep love that I was revealing not discovered something that had never known before: Fear. Actor recently told me - "Not a single day of my life that I do not terrify me thinking that something might happen to my children," And I thought: What a relief! I am not alone! -
Maybe it's that actors are very dramatic and all lived intensely, because ultimately that is our working material for the future. Perhaps the world is not the place that cares for and protects the innocence of many children unable to defend themselves. Maybe it's that the media are sensationalist and each story is horrifying. Perhaps the future is not what I thought as a child and that future will not let you see my Theo the wonderful things I've seen: Los Roques, full of life and color under the sea ice in the Pico Bolivar, The Tibet and its monks chanting and meditating all day in their monasteries with all its colorful ancient houses around his virgin Patagonia Glacier at sea level, The beautiful Samanes the edge of the highway Valencia road every weekend saw a child, the natural spring flow from the land and fed us at the top of a mountain in Trujillo, Carnivals in Sabana Grande, El Avila dense, wild and green that for years left me escape the city every morning, the small Andean villages and quiet, Macuto ... Or maybe, being a parent is just acknowledging all this, die for love and fear at the same time. Finally acknowledge the danger that we have ignored quietly while our parents are kept awake for us.
The truth is that usually in some interviews that I did, I asked: - What are you most afraid Eliana? - I never knew that answer, the Fear was not part of my life. Now you are afraid to Eliana and I know that's what horrifies me most in the world. It's not so easy to see some movies, read some news or play some tunes. Now they have every sense of the world these verses:
"When you have two children
have any fear of the planet, all the fear
men who want to kill
bright light and strike the sails and bloody balls
rubber and diving into tears railway line.
When two
children have the joy and woe the world into two heads,
all the anguish and all hope
light and tears, to see which one we arrives, if the mode
mourn the universe
mode light from the stars. "
" Children Infinity, Andrés Eloy Blanco.
